Cheese With Your Whine?
2.08.2006
Funk...with a capital FI don't know what's up lately. I just can't come out of this fog.
Maybe it's because I've been sick. Or because I'm still reeling from feeling violated since my house was broken into. Or stress at work.
Maybe it's because I'm struggling with feelings of inadequacy when it comes to Rylee and whether I'm doing what I should be by her. She's almost two, and it scares me to death sometimes to realize that I am solely responsible for her. It's my job and mine alone to see that she becomes a functioning member of society. She will learn her concept of love and family from me. Am I doing enough? I don't know. I sure miss out on a lot of her life by having to work. How am I supposed to teach her if I'm not there?
I want our lives to be better in a year than they are now. I want us to be better off financially. I hope she's happier (not that she's unhappy). I want to be a better mom.
I'm in a funk. I'd like to come out now, please.
